My head really hurt. It had that strangely numb and fuzzy feeling that heads have when they’ve been focusing for too long on one specific thing. The all-around sluggish sensation made me a little woozy as I stood up to stretch my legs and wonder how long I’d been curled over my notebook, fingers clenching my favorite mechanical pencil, eyes trained to the lined pages.
The process of revision is never easy.Whenever we are asked to take another look at ourselves, to alter, refine, and improve in some way, there is bound to be at least an inkling of resistance. This can be in our writing, or in our lives. But in both cases, it’s useful and, whether we like it or not, necessary to do.
These past few months have sent me back to the drawing board more times than I care to count. It seemed that each time I made a step forward, the revision process would take me two steps back. And while it wasn’t all this way, it certainly began to feel like I was only moving away from my goal.
But, when I think about it, I wonder if the “goal” ever really existed? Maybe for me, the process was the goal? I have certainly learned a lot in the past few months, about myself and about my writing. I have worked with being more present, in my creation of story, and in the experiences of my life.
So as I look ahead to the final submission date, I know that everything is exactly as it should be.
This Week’s Inspiration:
For the Eyes: Spring is underway here in Pittsburgh! Take a moment to appreciate the delicate blossoms popping up all over the city.
For the Ears: I am loving listening to the rain we’ve been having, lately. The spring sounds in general are so welcoming after the winter months!
For the Soul: “What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us.” ~Ralph Waldo Emerson